Intruders

INTRUDER... all of em. That's what they are.

I struggled at first...

'God, I cant do that. This isn't right... Not if blah blah blah blah blah...'

'Rosheeda do not give up your position. Do not allow ... blah blah blah blah blah ... to take from you what I have already given.'

Then it dawned on me. Of all the players in this game right now, I am NOT the intruder here. I  am not the one on somebody else's turf. I am not the one lieing to someone that I'm supposed to love and encouraging them to throw their lives away. I am not the one wreaking havoc. And I DO NOT have to respect those who are.

I DO NOT have to hand back what God has given to me.

Because I am not the intruder here. I'm no interloper. I'm no Jezebel. I'm no liar or thief. I'm not a deciever or a destroyer.

I am not the enemy here.

I didn't walk all up in somebody else's house to bring mess and destruction, but they have surely tried to run ALL UP IN MINE.

That being the case, I dont need to get out. THEY DO. I dont need to step aside to let them ransack my house. THEY need to back it up. ALL the way up and ALL the way outta what's mine.

I'm not wrong to stand up and take my place beside my man. I'm not wrong to protect my interests in this.

My daddy would say 'it's better to be smart than proud.'

God says 'be shrewd but innocent.'

There is a way to do this, a way to influence this thing, even while it looks like I'm just falling back.

There is a way.

And it's not dishonest or deceptive. Nor is it disrespectful to what's been asked of me.

I FINALLY get it!

"DO NOT GIVE UP YOUR POSITION. Stay put and hold your position."

Makes total sense. Because the only way I can really honor what I've been asked to give is to not give up my position. That thing that's been asked of me, that support that has been the request in all this, can only come from the fact that I am who I am to him. Nobody else can be that or fill those shoes. They might try. But at the end of the day, that's all me.

"Stay put and hold your position."

DUH!

God told me this from the start, but in light of all the rest, it feels unnatural. And it is. But it certainly is right...

Ok God. I get it now. I totally get this now.... yes Sir.

Amen.